...means that
I`m too busy too often to be too free to be able to do all the things I want to.
Sorry...It`s just that I almost never have all the time I need, and I really-really wish it were different, especially when I have to tell somebody I`m not able to do the things we both want, I hate it when it sounds like as if I were trying to get rid of him/her and at these moments I think that all the words of apologies of mine do not cost a thing, but it`s the only thing I`ve got left to do, so I`m saying that I`m busy and I`m sorry. Try to understand. I`m just busy, and there`s almost no point asking me about the reason of it being so, `cause I`m doing a great lot of things at the same time and all the explaining steals the time I could`ve used on getting rid of the things making me busy..8) Don`t be angry with me, don`t think me to be an ego or a different kind of a freak and I`ll do everything I can not to be one. I hope that I won`t have to repeat that again, it`s too complicated